being a zabardasti

Till about 3 years ago I never participated in any activities that happened at my school or in my city. Then in 2015, I did my first comedic play You Can’t Take It with You. I was Mr De Pinna. And that was my last play too!

zabardasti means compulsion, the action or state of forcing or being forced to do something.

In the last 2 years, I have tried to do take part in everything I could. Why? Because I just want to. And this has made me into a “zabardasti”. I force myself into participating and then I force people to let me join in.

It doesn’t feel right, to be honest, to force people to let me join in. I don’t know if they are letting me join in happily or not. I can’t differentiate. And it gets me. Have I become someone who is a burden to other people?

I don’t want to be a burden. But I am becoming one. A zabardasti.

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